:Wavetales

It’s been raining. The rain got me outside for a while. The water started to come in, next to the chimney first. I called my landlord who said that it has happened before, and it just need some silicone insulation and that he’s coming tomorrow. But then water started drop out of the roof about meter away from the chimney. Not funny at all. I called him again and he though that it’s still probably the chimney but that the water travels a bit inside the roof. He said that the roof breathes so it will dry out, but of course it would be nice that there wouldn’t be so much water to dry out. So I went to the roof with a headlamp, plasticbags, tape and a piece of thin rope. I tried to tie plasticbags around this seam which is probably leaking. I also tried to see if there’s any marks on the roof but I didn’t really see any. Well, probably he’s right about the chimney seam.

My father’s place just had water damage. I still don’t know has the plumbing leaked or has the upstairs neighbour had a really bad day, but there was a lot of water. Lucky my 16-tracker didn’t catch any. Houses should be for water staying out and us inside dry. Not funny at all.

Didn’t got money from TKT for travelling to Russia to perform so now I just filled an application for sleipnir. If I don’t get the grant I cannot go.

Got mail from KELA that they’ll give me 170€ after all, oh how nice. That’s almost half of my rent so I guess it’s noworries then.

Updated to WP 2.0.4 which went quite easily except I missed a couple of things first.

Been listening a lot of music today. Just now Jim O’Rourke’s insignificance which is really quite quite good.
Also good deal of Ulver.

I read Thud by Pratchett and it was very nice. They’re quite the same but somehow right now I like these A-M story lines, like night watch, going postal, the truth and so on. It seems that The Witches has been out of storyboard for a while, except with Tiffany Aching, but it’s not really the same is it. But I just said I like these A-M storylines so it’s ok with me. I’m sure Granny Weatherwax shall return on some point.
Since everything is so depressing (is it really?) I started to read “the last continent”, good fun.

Good night.

Please do tell me

but that is no surprise.

Got the invitation to St.petersburgh today. Money application should be sent by tomorrow and preferably by both of us, S and me. That’s not going to happen. So what to do? I’ll sent one for myself? And of course vr.fi doesn’t tell the train trip prices for russia. Bummer bummer.
Maybe a wild guess will do?

I’m getting slightly annoyed how things are taken care of, but then again why should I be annoyed. I don’t have to go and of course I could’ve asked info earlier on. Still, I’m annoyed.

And my netspace provider haven’t answered to the question I’ve made. For some reason I cannot create more e-mail addresses eventhough it should be possible quite easily. And I’ve been thinking that after my contract with darlingdear provider ends I would transfer darlingdear to the same provider as waveway, but if this continues like this I have to think again. Usually though they answer quite quickly.

Still no answer from q-olio either. I cannot get q-olio mails to my own mac and I don’t know why. darlingdear mail is gettin way too much spam so I think I have to change that address too. We have too much e-mail addresses anyway.

All of you finnish speakers, check this.

So much for nothing.

Please do tell me

Yesterday I finally switched on y fostex and did some singing for Weazie. He asked me to sing on one of his songs. I sung about 6 tracks from which two/three works quite fine. One being the lead and two being harmonies. I did a raw mix out of it and sent it to weazie yesterday. He did like it. I don’t, or, well, the problem is that if you listen it through headphones, it sound alright, but then when I put it through stereos, it… well it soesn’t sound so good. I had the same problem with “the record”. Really, it’s almost funny, when I listen it with the headphones everything hears to be almost ok. Even my singing hears to stay in tune better when listening with headphones. Through stereos it sounds awful. I do not know why. Jussi said something about phasing… or something, but he didn’t really understood it any better than I. I don’t.

I wonder why artist do not say anything about this copyright law? Are they really ok with companies ripping off their fans. Or are they themselves who are ripping off their fans? Like what Mogwai says (well maybe they don’t have as STUPID copyright law in scotland). And our cultural minister has studied socialwork, and still she seems to be happy to make poor people’s lives even harder. How much help music can provide to a unemployed? Or movies? Or games even. But being unemployed you cannot afford them. And you can’t copy them either. well movies you can rent quite cheaply, but music, not. Maybe if you live in helsinki or some other big town with good library resources that can help a bit, but if you live in a place like outokumpu. There’s no way to get music easily. If I cannot copy anymore cd’s to my own use, why the hell are we still paying certain prosent off from every empty cd-r to teosto? Tell me? can I copy cd’s to my own use? can I copy my own cd’s? Can I copy vinyl’s? what can I actually do. Maybe I need to check this out.

Speaking of net distribution check out archive again. There’s quite a few live’s from Mogwai, like already mentioned but also from Mono and Explosions in the sky which both are, according to my knowledge, also so called “post-rock” bands.

Just switched to Kolumbus from Elisa which might have been mistake since I think now they might charge me for this month from Elisa, and from kolumbus. Bummer, should have called to Elisa first.

Tired I am.

Today:
Burzum -Filosofem
Philipp Glass – Songs from the Trilogy
Burzum – Hvis Lyset Tar Oss
Steve Reich – Cello Counterpoint (thanks Sanna)
Jesu – Heart Ache
katatonia – The great cold distance

reading:
Sheri S. Tepper – Grass

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Another conversation about copyright laws of finland. Maybe we can translate expression corporate wh**e to corporate karpela. So we are always paying double.
Rich will get richer and poors poorer. And if you’re poor you have no right to enjoy anykind of entertaiment. Would that be music, movies or even TV. Because you cannot afford it, and if you copy something you will be prosecuted and fined. There’s somethign seriously wrong with this model of society. How can we change it?

If you don’t know where today’s headline comes from listen to Manes. I don’t know where they’ve picked that up, if they have. Their “new” ep has been out for ages now but I still don’t have it. Bummer. I probably need to get it then.

And of course. Jesu is releasing an ep, anyday now. Also vinyl version will follow. Short samples can be found here. [via] and if you’re interested in more frequent news go here

I’m somehow suprised how popular myspace have become. And why the hell the layouts are always so crappy on those pages? Could someone make a better ones please? Can someone make better ones? Even Max has one, and look about his friends. SHould I get one, myspace i mean not a friend? I guess not, why bother.
And somehow, I think that eventually I will.

I listened today EF‘s and Molia Falls‘ 7″, and I truly like them both. Molia Falls’ pages were “closed” but Ef’s not and they have an album made. I think I’ll would like to have that one too. A lot of swedish music coming my way.

Yeah, I guess I should get a job.

Today:
DHG – 666 international
Ef – trilogy 7″
Molia falls – trilogy 7″
Mogwai – Mr. Beast
Various smaples through the net
like Jesu, Final, Gojira and Kirlian Crossing

Read:
Viktor Pelevin – Kauhukypärä (the helmet of horror)

Thinking of giving Sheri S. Tepper another chance and start reading “Grass”

Did I already tell that Sanna had some Rum, which I borrowed to my ice latte. Very very good. I think I’ll have to get some Rum myself.
Local restaurant close it’s door at eight o’clock today so no pizza, bummer.

Please do tell me

Had a talk with her. It’s not ok, her back hurts, but I’m not willing to pay. Even if the initiate would have come through my mistake, the reason it has become chonical(?) is not. I do feel guilty though, but not enough. And I am truly sorry. Anyway, I think we will get along. I hope that the insurance will deal with it. It should after all.

I was wrong about Mr. Beast’s folky kind of way, it’s ot folky it’s country. listen acid foor, those slide guitars, it’s country music man. And to be honest it’s kinda hard bit in a way, maybe my musical taste is becoming even broarder. Anyway acid foor is not my favourite song anyway. But todays headine is along with folk death ’95, which in my opinion has nothig to do with folk music though, and friend of the night of course, and we’re no here.

Day after tomorrow starts registration for freiburg contact festival. I will try. Contact moscow is coming. NIM I’ll definetly try to go and straight after freiburg there’s ECITE in austria. Argh. Money.

I’m too much in here but skype works fine. Which is nice.

Hope the days will get better.

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Today I heard that if insurance doesn’t pay, I will. I’m not sure was she serious, really. I think she was, but come on: During an improvisation lesson in a improvisation I jumped on her back. Jump is a too big word though, but used her back as a support, quite easily. I was surprised that she got angry, since I was quite sure it was a soft touch and weight. It was, but maybe she scared a bit because it surprised her. I don’t remember anyone reacting much, including the teacher. I don’t even remember that she would have wanted ice for it, which is really a basic procedure. About 6 months later I heard that her back was still a bit hurt , but she said that she has also been lifting her child often so it’s hard to say what is the exact reason. She also went to one third year student final work (back then final works didn’t have to be a solo you see, like now), and quit just week before the performance because of her back. I would guessed that she could have refuse a bit earlier if her back was really giving trouble all the time. Now, year and a half later I hear that if insurance doesn’t pay, I will. Well, I will not. She hasn’t really taken care of herself in these 18 months or so. And nothing is really broken. According to three doctors the pain she’s having is muscle pain, she probably has an infection because she hasn’t taken care her back enought to let it heal. And now she’s blaiming me. The implications of this case are rather worrying. Risks are included in the work of a dancer, there might be misjudgements, miscalculations. Do I need to take certificate from everyone I work with, that they don’t sue me? Or can I trust that they will take care of themselves? Anyway, I think this will not lead to anysort of trouble, but her additue is really annoying. Got me angry enough. And it’s sure that I will not work with her again. Luckily I don’t have to. I rather work with people to whom I can trust.

So not a happy day in anyways. Luckily Mr. Beast is at least as good as I expected. Wonderful, truly wonderful. Although there’s singing in quite a few songs, and some of the songs are rather happy in a folky kind of way, but still it works fine.

Mogwai – Mr. Beast
Katatonia – The Great Cold Distance
Alva Noto – Trans-
Jesu – Heart ache

Please do tell me

Here on a trip I don’t have a clue about the pictures, so no photos.

Next NIM will be in 1st-6th of June, it will cost 125€ and will happen in Norway, an hour trip away from Oslo. All those interested contact someone soon, You should register before 1st of may by paying 60€ deposit. All of those who don’t know what NIM is either find out or forget it.

Got “Mr. Beast” of course but totally forgot to ask about “friend of the night”. I don’t actually have money to either of these but come on, it’s new Mogwai. You can always find some money to new Mogwai. Also found out that Tori Amos has released an official bootleg compilation which seems to be a treat but it’s 75€ so no can do.

And thinking about photos I have 7 films waiting to be developed and that will take about 70€ as well. So what will it be? Photos, Amos, rent, something completely different.

Visiting mom is always annoying. It’s tragic how everything she owns seems to be crap. I just washed some snowboarding clothes on ~30 degrees and it took one hour and forty minutes! Car’s locks seemed to be broken, this computer is crappy and this flat is full of useless cheap crap. Mostly towels. How many towels (and sheets) can one woman need? Some how this makes me feel excused to use her money. I mean I use it much more wisely than she does. (Well, that of course depends on a point of view. Which one do you prefer, cd’s containing good music or tens and hundreds of different kinds (color not the quality) of sheets and towels?). I’m old already and being a bit worried about my likeness to my mother. I also seem to accumulate stuff around me, and yes sometimes it’s even useless, but still at this point it’s mosly not. When I get older will I also start to buy cheap, useless and tacky stuff like her? Hope to god not.
Well it’s her money of course, the thing that confuses me is that she’s most of the time complaining that she doesn’t have the money but everytime I come and visit (once every two months?) some new stuff (like table, mirror, crappy radio, postboxes saying 100€ that have contained god knows what) have appeared. She could save a lot of money just not buying crappy things. Already I feel sorry for my future self having to figure out what to do with all the stuff when she’s gone. And that won’t (hopefully) happen in many years.

Happier sides of visiting “home” is that there’s is even some food in the fridge, although you have to be quite sharp with “best before” dates, but usually there’s something eatable too.
And there’s still some of my own stuff. although it’s getting harder and harder to find those underneath all her stuff. What seems to be clear is that I won’t be moving here after school.

Helsinki has it sides. Good and bad. One of them is R.

Bought fresh dates yesterday, very very good. Good side.

Later.

Please do tell me

We are already living in a state of fear and selfcensorship. All our bold feminist are doing nothing except being sorry for some mild pictures even though there should be planty to say about islams ways to treat women. Maybe our bold feminists, president included, want to go back home cooking food, making babies, dressed in bags.
One finnish culture magazine from Oulu (northern town) released a cartoon which does include muhammed and cartoonist having a conversation. I see no reason for anyone to get upset. I see no way that would make mockery of anyones beliefs even. And still, head editor has been sacked. Town of Oulu has cancelled the work they had ordered from the cartoonist. Two big finnish insurance/banking companies took out their advertisemt from the magazine. What we learn from here? It’s quite ok to threat with violence. It works. Now I only wonder that maybe I should start to make death threats too, that seem to be the way to make things work in here. I’ll kill you and your family if you don’t do as I say!!!!

Oh brother.

Added support danmark banner to side as you can notice, but it’s not really their struggle anymore. It’s ours, it’s mine.

Sad am I, sad I am.

On the happier side. Maiju made me a new hat since the previous one got stolen in Israel. It’s very very good although she complained that she couldn’t get as good yarn as she used for the stolen one. I don’t mind, it’s better than the hat’s I have. Let’s see has Noora got the one I ordered ready. She also complained about the yarn I got for her, saying it’s so thing that it will take ages to make it ready. And I do believe her since it has taken ages, hah. Although I could also blame Hanna since I do not know anything about knittin etc. and she was with me when buying the yarn and said that it would be fine. I guess, no, I’m not excatly sure she said that, but she didn’t said it wouldn’t be fine either.

Weazie sent me one of his songs with vocals if I would care to sing it. I will although I do not think my performance will be any better than his, actually. But it’s very nice of him to ask. I can make couple of versions and then he can use one of them if he want’s. My bet is that he won’t use them after all. Then again I haven’t made the versions yet.

Which brings to mind that I really should and should and should sing. Also I should make up some lyrics. I should record. I should edit. But instead I sit here in front of computer writing this blog, and reading others. Jeij.

Soon it’s waves again, sixth day. On seventh, all rested but I will not.

Lot of people/bloggers seem to use flickr, I wonder should I? But maybe first I should do photo.waveway.org since it’s still not ready. To be honest I havent’ really even started. There’s still hundreds of pictures I should run through and see what I want to present.

Remember: friends are evil. If not to you, to the other people.

“and all the stones I’ve thrown, they came back twice as strong”

Edit:
found this:
Udland20Jyllands-Posten

Very clear writing why those 12 cartoons was published in jyllands posten. Shame on you finnish president, prime minister and other sorry cowards.

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Alone.

Thank you Sufjan.

Well we decided to have the jams anyway. There’s not so much people coming but ladies, or more likely Henna was determined that it’s still a worth while so now we’re having the jam. I went along eventually but as soon as I had send the messages to people who are coming and realised that it’s possible that even some of them will cancel, I started to doubt the whole thing. I want out.
Can I get myself out?
Can I?

Maybe just to leave on thursday, or maybe on sunday. I don’t know. I do feel that I need a holiday, yet again, and now I’ve also given up 4 days of my holiday. It would be ok if there would be 30 people coming but there is not. I’m afraid we won’t reach the critical mass, when everything starts to flow by it self. If that happens we have to struggle a bit. There’s nothing wrong in strugling but it’s not holiday, that’s for sure.

The first wave out of eight went quite nicely. No one was there, but it doesn’t matter. It was freaking cold of course since I was barefeet and the place is about as cold as outside. Maybe even colder today, because it’s been gettin warmer outside. For tomorrow I decided to ask a couple of heaters to blow warm air. Thanks. Let’s see will I get them. If I won’t, I’ll just have to wear woolsocks I guess.

Back to the jam issue: I really can’t win can I. If it would have been canceled. It would have been because of me. if it won’t work out. It will be because of me. Aaargh.
Oh well I you would like to come to contact improv jam on 3-6.3 please let me now asap.

Even if I died alone.

Please do tell me

So where are we now?

President is apologizing because some finnish net site “published” the muhammad pictures. I do not understand why on earth is she apologizing? And what? That we have morons in this country? WTF there’s morons in every country and I still believe that pictures do far more less harm than threatning/acting with violence. What greatly annoys me in this is the fact that those people who released the pictures and also those who draw them are not muslims? Why they should follow islamic law? Should we all then start to follow sharia law? Should all the women in here dress in robes and whatnot and stay home under manly supervising? I know that they published the pictures in means of provokation, why on earth there’s a need to get upset? Why? I’m getting upset because there are people who are using violence as a tool of communication. Not because there’s people who are NOT following jesus or the god I believe exists? Are they apologizing this to me? I do not think so. WTF is wrong with you. I can draw pictures of muhammed and jesus. I am not a muslim. I’m not ruled by their laws or ethics and why the hell I should be. I was born and I’m still living in MOSTLY christian country. I should follow the laws of the country and my own ethics. Not theirs. If someone is NOT following their ethics why we should apologize? I do not understand.

Had lataamo today. Played pop and metal. ’90 ’90 ’90. At the Gates is right,
“the living end
the dwarfed soul of man
the living end…
.. our ignorance will be the end of humanity
a dead nation under one dead god
What is evil but good tortured by it’s own hunger and thirst?”

Things are not black and white, but there is a such thing as right (even though my right might not be your right). And I have to know what is right, what is important, and to follow it.

I still believe that killing people is wrong, although I start to see it’s good points. I still believe that slavery is wrong. I still believe that domestic violence is wrong. I still believe that even threatning with violence is wrong. Much more wrong than some offensive pictures. Now, bugger of with those pictures. And I don’t know if this is true, but if it is, we (as a nation, european, christian, western, whatnot) have NO reason to be sorry or apologize.

What if everybody would take care of them selves for a change? Like that I’ll follow my own morals. Although if someone moral is to kill everyone who don’t believe like s/he does, then we’re fucked. Well, we’re fucked anyway. Western corruption will kill us all anyway. Praise the Lord.

All the mystics everywhere around the world agrees that everything is fine, well, ok.
Thanks Anthony de Mello.

Something more important? Yes, Cult of Luna is releasing a new album. Jeij. And I already told about Mogwai, Jeij.
There’s probebly something else too to wait for.

I still lack one assistant to help me with 8 waves for 7 days. I’ll find one, sure. Got the “flyers” ready today. Maybe I’ll post a picture soon. Probably to darlingdear’s dance section though.

Good night and good luck to you all.

Please do tell me

No actually. Outside is so cold that I’ve stayed inside the whole day. It isn’t wise, I know. Almost needless to say, but I say anyway that I do not feel too good. This flat has a beautiful quality to become really hot when outside is really cold. But then when outside is near 0ËšC, temperature inside goes down also. Not to 0ËšC but close enough so that it’s cold. Nicest balance seems to be around -10ËšC in winter. And summer is easy.

I tried to figure out how I could rip supersilent 7 audio to cd, so that I could listen to it with portable. Tried ffmpegX, but for some reason it doesn’t rip all of the VOB’s. 1 and 3 won’t work. All the other ones (2, 4-7) work quite fine. I also tried toast but that only rips the first sequence. So I’m actually missin only VOB 3. But I would like to do whole thing with something more certain. Now if you have a suggestion about software, please do tell me. Remember I’m using iMac, not windows.

Apparently fresh pasta survives one day in room temperature without going bad. I think I would have some signs already.

Pratchett’s “The truth” is almost finished and I can’t recall how it actually ends, which is nice, of course. I read it three years ago, memory is not that long after all. I have vague ideas of course.

Been reading to blogs, and a lot about this “thou shall not draw a prophet” thingy. Enough is said. Today I heard in news that quite a few islamic leaders have condemned the violence. I am very glad to hear that. Thanks.

“you ought to start them young, that way they naturally love the taste of corporate cum…”
Listening Pedro the Lion‘s control. It’s such a shame that Bazan won’t use that name anymore. I like it.

I have to think about “8 waves for 7 days”. I haven’t decide the place yet so on this starting week I have to do it. It also seems that I cannot do it between 17-18 everyday since it’s getting brighter and brighter. It’s not dark enough at 5pm. I think I’ll do it from 7pm to 8pm then. Kind of logical. I should finish the DVD’s and make a some kind of hand program and flyers. I have ideas already but now I have to make them reality, which is always difficult to me.
First I though that I would use week 7 but now it seems there would be chance to perform with “Mercy..” 4.1 on that week so maybe I’ll shift it to week 8. More reasons to start 7pm.

I didn’t keep lataamo this past week eventhough I should’ve, for various reasons. So I’m going to do it this coming week (so hard to write on sunday) and it should be possible to hear it through the web. If so, I’ll try to post the address. Going to play Isis, COL, Red Sparowes, etc. And then something else.

Today:
more frantic bleep, nine horses, paus
but also Autolux, Pedro the Lion and Mister Basinski

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In a way what a lovely day. Nothing to do, well there is, but nothing to worry about, well there is, but nothing to… anyway. Nothing that I would have to do right now, nothing that I would have to worry right now. Been inside since outside it’s cold. Listened music more or less. Wondered is it really so offending to make a mockery out of God, and does all those people, who are saying that danmarks press (I forgot the newspapers name) have done wrong, think that it’s then quite allright and understandable to use and threat with violence? The proeblem seems to be that we are easily judging our reactions, but no body seems to judge all that violence. Come on. World is full of stupid pictures. Is that really reason to burn houses or kill people? We’re in serious trouble.

My opinion? Yes maybe that newspaper wasn’t too toughtful, maybe they could have think twice before publishing the pictures, but people are seriously over reacting. They’re threathing lives of people who just happen to come from nordic countries. Please, some big islamic authority, could you judge this behaviour? Also, “we” here should judge that kind of behaviour.

Some people are all the time complaining that they’re culture isn’t respected. I see that now days in finland the culture that get least respect seems to be christianity. We should take care that hindus, muslims or atheists don’t feel offended by our xmas parties or whatever. But somehow no one has to take care that our culture and habits aren’t offended, because they are, all the time.

And the funniest thing is that those pictures were published because of notion that certain topics about islam is being censored. No wonder because you can get yourself killed. We really are entering into society where we cannot speak about things anymore. We have to watch out our step otherwise we get killed. You know what that is called? Terror, terrorism. We are terrorised to be silent.

I do not think that women should stay home. I do not think that women should be beaten by their husbands. I do not think that women should be opressed under the force of men. I cannot think that it is right even if it would be part of some ones culture. I do not think that threatning with violence is right. I do not think that circumcision is right in most of the cases. I don’t think that deathpenalty is right. Not so long ago, people sacrificed other people to god, that was part of the culture. Do you think that was right? Please, if you judge those stupid pictures, remember to judge also the use and threath of violence.

When I started I really didn’t think I would write about this, but apparently I can’t help myself. You see, I don’t have to approve and understand everything. Neither do you. The question is, In a case of disapproval, how do we act?

I baked quite good datebread, since it’s S’s birthday. Soon it will be all gone.
I read Pratchett’s the Truth and will continue tomorrow.
I listened
Frantic Bleep
Massive Attack
Edge of Sanity
Nine Horses
Susanna and the magical orchestra
Hanne Hukkelberg
Lali Puna
Broken Social Scene
Frank Jordan
Bad Plus

Tolerate. I will not Tolerate. Jesus won’t you fucking whistle…

angel left wing right wing broken wing
lack of iron and/or sleeping

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Been reading a lot of writing about this case. I’m sad. I could have hoped that islamic leaders in finnish would have said that they don’t aprove the death threats, or the violent acts. But apparently they have not said this, which means that we are all under a threath, say one word wrong, write one word wrong and people actually think that you should be killed. GOD, true GOD doesn’t mind our words, our writings our contempt our jokes because s/he is infinite and above all of that.

Islam doesn’t look too bright. No wonder also right wing christianity is getting wind under their wings. World doesn’t look too bright. All of this because of couple of pictures. Totalitarian states have always killed the art and artists. I am an artist. So it’s way too easy to choose my side on this.

You sad sad sad people. Right wing, left wing. All the same.

Now, please go to Blake archive And see what Isaiah says in The Marriage of Heaven and Hell , plate 12. And according to my memory in old testament (at least in finnish translation) god defines himself as s/he who is. Look around, what IS there?

Anything worth to fighting for?

Sad bastards. Bomb all! Go a head already. Mankind has no hope.

In this hopelessness I get great comfort from:
Monopot – everything is like nothing was
Monopot – Optipess
Hanne Hukkelberg – Little things
Among others.

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Today I finally finished the writing of those two school essays. So only one more task to do which is to put up a business. Not really of course but really plan it with start budget’s and business idea and risks and so on. Maybe on sunday.

Visited some other blogs and that with a long conversation with Hanna made me think that maybe atom bomb isn’t such a bad idea. We realy don’t have much hope do we, but still it’s probably the only thing that keeps us going.

No matter how beautiful ideas you would support and say when you’re forming a religion, it’s pretty damn sure that sooner or later, probably sooner, your followers will totally fuck it up. Look christianity, look islam, look what ever. People are always searching reason to hate and despise each others. It’s just so sad that some so beautiful things are distorted. Now this of course is my interpretation and I’m totally aware that you can always say that I’m distorting things. Yes that is possible. But please could you find some better reasons to hate gays, the circumcise girls, to blow up each others and all that other shit that you’re doing, than religion. Sadly most of that is done by male’s who are afraid of women, gays and themselves. But not just males, also women, ken ken.
I have quite a while wondered why on earth in islamic countries (not all of them not all of them) and also some christian countries (and some countries, societys what ever the religion), males are saying that they are the wiser gender and that woman is dumber and closer to animal, but still women have to be locked up and dressed in sacks because if a man sees a glimpse of flesh he goes gracy doesn’t have any control of himself and has every right to rape and act just like an animal. No, actually animals are much wiser. How do you explain that? Man is wiser and closer to god but acts much more like an animal a savage, than women does? Only if god is an animal, not wise, not thoughful not contained, but acting on an impulse, greed, disrespect and want, you can say that man is closer to god. You sad sad people. Bomb us all I say. Ignorant piece of shit.

To not to end on these happy thoughs, let me say that I added a box on the right which shows the top ten artist whom I’ve been listening on my computer last week. I have to remind that it only shows what I’ve had listened through computer. So it’s not all I listen. Anyway list is provided to me by last.fm I hope I find a nicer looking one. And I just noticed that if your browser window isn’t wide enough, it won’t show. So if you don’t see it, try widening the window.

Anyway, since it only tells top 10 of the week,
Today:
Monopot – Everything is like nothing was
Ulver – Blood inside
D̩sormais Рdead letters to lost friends
Mitchell Akiyama – Small explosions that are yours to keep
Frantic Bleep – Sense apparatus
Knut – Terraformer
Opeth – Blackwater park
Carcass – Necrotism
Kim Hiorthøy – Melke

Tomorrow I have to be in school at eight, so I better get some sleep.

good night and good luck to you all.

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Again another day when I don’t do anything I really should do. Like my school tasks. I do understand why, but at the same time I know this is extremely stupid since, most of my stress would be released if I would get those 3 tasks done and out of the way. There’s more important things to do, but now I don’t even do them.

Pathway is this: Lupatarkastaja -> Tenderversion -> Scraps Of Tape -> Jezebel
Today I got “a trilogy of dreams, noise and silence” 3×7″ vinyl. I found this by following the pathway above, but to my surprise, at the moment my favourites are actually EF and Molia Falls 7″ I guess both bands are from sweden and again I ask: What is it with that country? Ok ok ok, there’s a lot of good stuff coming from Finland too, yeah I’m sure. I just should get more into it. But visit Jezebel. If you live in EU all three of trilogy are just 16€ and that includes postage. Ok I do understand that maybe some of you don’t have a vinyl player. I have one message to you: GET one!

There’s something definetly wrong with space1.nu’s mysql… having problems with connecting. Made another blog surface to darlingdear.net. Why? I really don’t know, I’ll probably won’t do anything with it. just playing around instead of going to sleep.

I wonder could the java script (that added olenrikollinen? banner to my page) has anything to do with these problems? I guess not. I’ll try again though.

Only had morning class today and after that I went to a walk and took some pictures, nothing special though. Yesterday I did the same route and then the sun was setting, but I didin’t have my camera. Which brings to mind that I have still about 5-7 films to be developed, but no money for that right now. Maybe next month… Or maybe I’ll wait till holiday and Hki, 15×20 are nice after all.

Sleep sleep sleep….

But before that. Visit jezebel and order some good music, it’s cheap.

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who ever it may be.

It seems that Tarja Halonen has won the elections and will continue another 6 years as a president. Good. What was a bit scary is that she won just by 2%, which is really… alarming. I mean her opponent was a guy who’s playing for big corporates, who says that he is on a workers side but apparently just as long as the person has work, so If a company takes the production (and jobs) to china he doesn’t have anything against it, or at least he doesn’t have anything to say to this. I actually Heard that he had said that for corporation is more important to make money than take care of ethics!! Ok, I heard so I hope this is not true, because if it is, we are in serious trouble. He got over 48% of the votes, so does 48% of finnish citicens really think that it’s more important to make money than take care of ethics and moral? Money isn’t a value! Profit isn’t a value!

All of those people who are saying to be christian, have those people voted a man who says it’s more important to make money than to take care of ethics? Without business ethics (and yes we’re heading there all the time, We actually are there already) It’s ok to take all the jobs in china, indonesia whatever. Use childlabour, pay minimum rates for employed, have people to do overtime work without extra pay and so on. Now people of finland, do you really want this to be happening here or in anywhere? Is it ok to go back to slave trading, just to make more money.

People, we are so dumb it scares the hell out of me. How can I ever equipt my children to cope with all those bastards, who don’t care or seek anything else except maximun profit for them selves. Do you really want that? And yes I do understand that it’s not such a big deal since president don’t have that much power anymore. But the outcome of these elections show the values of this country however, and I don’t like the direction. And it’s hard for me to understand that some people want to take us to this “all for me, I don’t give fuck about others” mentality. Move to america, let’s see do you like it there, the land of opportunities.

All of you who call yourself christian: What is important, the outside layer of the values inside?
Reason why I am asking this is that Tarja Halonen doesn’t belong into lutheran church, and her opponent probably does. But her values are much closer to the values I find important in christianity, than his. It’s so remarkable how humans always tend to find the outside more important than inside.

Lighter topics: Mitchell Akiyama‘s “small explosions that are yours to keep” is perfect. Listened it three times during the morning.
Found out that Henna had Arve Henriksen‘s “sakuteiki” and i’m listening to it right now. And I have quite strong feeling that next time I’ll go to digelius I’ll get this and the other solo album.
Couldn’t really write any school tasks at all.

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I called today to elisa to disonnect my adsl. Found out that they have one month notice time so I can get rid of it at the end of february. Why? Telekarelia is offering much faster and a bit cheaper connection, so why not to take it? This months notice time was a bummer though.

I do release that I repeat myself under stress I repeat myself under… But do yourself a favour and visit here, and then listen through Masonnes samples. Damn damn damn, no money and no credit card. Hmm.. could my dear mother help me? Maybe, maybe not. Problem is that also Seidenmatt and Torchous sound way too good. And if you’re going to order stuff why not to order all of them at the same time? Why not?

Funny to notice that news are taking sides. Elections of the next president is still going on. First there’s a note that some specialist says that getting involved with NATO would give Finland more security. And next news is that according to some study, election of other candidate would bring Finland closer to gettin into NATO. More money, more bombs, more guns, more victims, more corpses. Oh how I feel ever so safe.

Time to time I wonder why the hell I write this. I visited finnish list of blogs, and noticed that there’s much more useless blogs than this so why the hell not? Why not?

What was har name? Silve help me here, the woman, the housekeeper? No, I forget the names so easily.

I tried to write… I should write 3 pages (at least) about how I perceive my body and movement in dance practise. My god, 3 pages. I have 2 and a half and I feel I said everything. Yes it’s good to practise verbalisation, but why we have to have set amount of pages? Ken ken, I’m in school, that is how schools work, I assume.

Listened Ulver’s Vargnatt, the demo and the song. Beginnings howl(?) is brilliant.
Still entwined into Blake’s visions represented by Ulver.
But also Once We Were‘s Repulsion has played quite a few times.
And now, Masonne.

…in ages of imagination this firm perswasion removed mountains; but many are not capable of a firm perswasion of any thing…
-W.Blake

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Link you see on the right is agains the most stupid copyright law. They really fucked it up here in finland. It seems that now I’m more or less criminal too. Everytime I even start to think about this whole law mess I get angry. How come we vote so dumb people to make decisions about these things? She should really be somewhere else than fixing laws, corporate *****

Today I finally did some (two) school tasks. I felt like 14 again trying to find right answers, and then the answers were there, didn’t use copy/paste though. The task was really made for 14 years old it seems. Total waste of my time but I need to get them done so I can have 2 (or was it 3?) studyweeks so that I’ll graduate this spring. Oh joy. Now there’s one more exam/task to do which is a bit more interesting and two essays that actually will need some thinking. Maybe tomorrow then.

A lot of Ulver, old and new. (Blood Inside, Themes…, Perdition City, Bergtatt, Kveldssanger and Vargnatt)
Some Frantic Bleep,
and now Christopher Willits.
And yes, I actually have all of them original, eventhough I am listening them through the iMac.

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Television shows yet another movie how great americans died in the foreign countries. Why the hell they don’t keep out? America is not, and has never been self-sufficient. They always have to go around and take it from somewhere else.

Not for that matter, that we here would be self-sufficient either. Once, not so long a go we were, but the world changes. And soon we probably don’t even have farmers here up north since it’s much more profitable/easier/convenient/whatnot to get the grains and bread from somewhere else. We have Eu now, everything moves easily. Call it globalisation, I call it dumb. Market shows and market rows, get it buy it sell it use it lose it abuse it. There’s no going back, so where are we actually heading?

Hey, check your….

There’s one question: What is important? What really is important? What is really important? What you want to do, right now, with the rest of your life? What is important?

And do not think that there is have to’s or must’s. It’s always, all the time, your choice. What do you choose?

This is gorgeous, signing out.

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All the Finnish people out there. Go here and sign it. All the other people too, but since it’s in finish, it’s maybe harder, since it’s nice to know what you’re actually signing.

The new copyright law is a mistake. I think everybody, even the minister of culture knows it but she just won’t admit it. Or maybe she really is that dumb and likes to walk on a big corporates leash.
Corporate …..

I’m getting angry again.
Dictatorship isn’t such a bad idea, only it should be wise dictator. Vote me everyone.

Outside is -26ºC, lovely. But still it’s nicer and warmer than Israeli houses at night (ok there wasn’t minus degrees but pretty damn cold still). At least when you go outside you supposed to wear clothes, (preferably a lot right now). In here I wear less clothes when I’m sleeping than during the day. In there I wear more clothes when sleeping than during the day. Which do you like it better?

Other place that you could visit, could be this. At least Masonne, Torchous and of couse Seidenmatt sounds nice.
More money more money.
And Mister Akiyama is again releasin something new and quite interesting. Visit intr-version‘s new pages to hear and read.

Oh yes, they crammed intel into a mac and now they have macbook (what a stupid stupid name). Only small(?) problem seems to be that there’s a change that some software that works with powerpc core doesn’t work on intel. No need to worry yet, I do not have the money anyway. But of course 4 times faster (compared to powerbook) laptop sounds nice. I could use a laptop, with this lifestyle of mine.

Humour, such a difficult field.
But at least now you can have chocolate nougat ice cream in one liter packages instead of one and a half. This makes ice cream buying much easier for me. Jeij.

Ken. All those Masonne samples sounds really nice to my ear. She sounds a bit like…. PJ? I don’t know but it sounds good, doesn’t it?

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