Sunjata (20.06.2009)
20.06.2009 Saturday
Bday and “midsummer” went on quite nicely, with slight bit of rain.
But there were more people on the day time going through the exhibition, which was nice. And Anja got the fresh bakery back into the “salary” which was nice.
Futuron.org and their “support still gets me angry, and annoyed but after I wrote this html that has all of the emails, I’m quite ok. maybe I’ll put it up if needed. It’s in finnish though.
Other thing that got me greatly annoyed was finding out that conspiracy had sent the packet long time ago, but with change of mac’s and everything I didn’t ask them early anough how is it. Nathan send me the tracking number and I found out that local post office (Itella office) had had it longtime ago, but the fuckers haven’t snd me ANY notice. and now they’ve send it pack already. I call to Itella’ customer service and they say, that there’s nothing I can do, only the sender can try to have reclamation from it. What kind of service is that? th same has happened before, but then I luckyli got the tracking number and it was still in office, so I got the packet out with it. But also then they hadn’t send me ANY notice that the packet was there. How to hell they think I’ll pick up my packets if they don’t let me know that they have one for me. Their service is such a shit. no wonder apple and every big corporation (with money) uses UPS or Fedex or whatnot.
I jsut hope that Nathan writes me back and tells that they have the packet back in their custody… so then they can send it back to me later on… and this time I’ll make sure I’ll have the tracking number from the start… and then tell my father to pick it up.. since hopefully I won’t be back in finland.
I don’t know will I end up somewhere else. but when it feels permanent I have to make a big trip to finland and get all of my vinyl.
I’m reading Alan W Watts “Zen” again. It’s quite nice because of the brief history of Tao, Hinduism into buddhism, mahajana buddhism and then Zen. But it’s written in 1950 and I wonder would there be same kind of book but just newer since I think there might be some new information about the history of buddhist writings and maybe also more accurate translations than in the ’50′s. Sadly most of the books I have find about Zen are filled with new age jargon about being in the moment and finding yourself… Uh.
But it’s interesting how everything relates in this world of “maja”
In some sense. In mahajana buddhism there are directions that come quite close to Luther. Because everything is as it is, and we are all buddhas, trying to enlighten only binds us more closely into desire and is also just building up ego. So only thing that we can do is to believe that we are Buddha already and we become one. Some one “scholar” has even said that only the repetation of the name of buddha Amitabha is enough since he realised that even trying to believe is too artifical. And this comes very close to Luther idea of “Only from faith”. We can’t think or pretend that we are pure and good enough for god for our own actions. If we think so it will only get us proud and pride was the reason why Lucifer fell. So only reason we are good enough for god is Jesus’ (ie god’s) sacrifice, and only thing we can “do” is to believe that we are saved.
The world view behind these two are very very different of course and thus can give us quite different ethics, morals and so on. But the basic principle of human beings true nature is somehow the same…
Why, because in both the basic principle is something you cannot really explain with words….
We only need to believe that we are saved, that we are buddhas already, that we are already seeing the face of god.
Other thing that made me slightly surprised was reading about kungfutse’s (religion) idea that human makes the idea big, not the idea the human. Thus human is the medium of everything. Thus no idea(ideology) can be more worthy than human. No ideology (or religion, since religion is an ideology) should be reason to do anything over human well being. So how the hell communism is still so big in china? They been fucking people over because of ideology for ages. Killing, oppressing whatnot. Of course communism banned all religions, also kungfutse. And of course any ideology will be fucked up it the hands of people or people getting the power. Communism is such a beautiful ideology as well as the base of christianity and quite some other religions. But people always seem to fuck things up. No matter how wise the teacher was. And thus Tao often seems pretty sensible: Shut up, don’t meddle, you can’t change the way the things are.
