lost in moments
Everything ends eventually and so it should be.
Festival was great. We did a good job, although some minor things we could have done better, but so it is always.
Point of views.
I was happy to see so many dear people and some specially dear people and to see them happy. I felt happy too and feel still happy, and slightly sad, but in a good way.
Back to working life today, and it was good too. It’s nice to go to work where you want to go.
Jerome had send me Nadja’s Corrasion (+ other stuff) and it looks and sounds great. Of course.
Blue vinyl, ah.
There was again some thoughs that I should have written down, but I didn’t and I’m not sure can I recollect them now. Something about dancing, and love, and war, and communication.
To think world would change if everybody would dance CI is.. well true, but would it change for better and how much? I’m not so sure. I’m quite sure we would still have wars and fights and whatnot.
However dancing is great so it could help if everyone tried it.
But to think… I can be open when I’m dancing, but I’m not an open person. I keep myself to myself, often. Like in here. I tell a lie, but ask anybody. To make assumptions about anyone for what ever reason and not to recognize those to be Just assumptions, is stupid. Nevertheless I do it all the time.
So please tell me who you are and what do you want. And yet again we fall into the question of identity.
When I dance who am I? dance is dance, I’m not dancing the dance, dance is dancing me. When it’s good. Ilona was saying the same (I think) but at the time I though of something else. I think the problem I mostly fall with language is that the concept of I is totally wrong. It is me who is dancing all the time. And it is (I am) aware, It (I) does what it’s have to, no more no less, but it’s (I’m) beyond the questions of good/evil right/wrong life/death. And maybe for a human being that is not such a common state. Although it can be achieved, for me often with the help(?) of art.
Ok, let’s leave philosophy aside.
I might have done mistake today. I changed my phone operator deal and ordered a new phone. I really need one, since my old is broken and hardly working (sometimes people on the other end hear me, sometimes not), but I’m not sure was this a good deal or not. Let’s see. It’s always problematic when you’re “stuck” with something for 2 years. Well, let’s see how does it go. After all, it’s only money, I just “lost” 230€ because not being able to use the flight tickets I had on wednesday to barcelona. But I have rehearsals, and I want to be here, not in barcelona. Just couldn’t change the dates with reasonable price. So it goes.
Next summer looks full, but we are not there yet.
