Dicipline
Whatever the reason, I’m sick again.
One woman I know would blame the stuff I eat,
I would blame working with kids.
Anyway this is the fifth day with sore throat, not so bad anymore though. And not really a fever at all which is always confusing… just sore throat, nothing else.
This is deeply annoying since it’s means that I’m still sick, and it might rise a fever, or something else. So no jam today which makes me feel… well, not good. and no work tomorrow apparently which makes me deeply annoyied since one very bad side of being a freelancer is that you don’t get payed if you don’t go to the work, which again means that I’ll not get the money I though I would. Is money everything? No, but occasionally it helps. Specialy since food price are over the top over here.. I don’t know should I laugh or cry… it’s just ridiculous.
Anyway.. where are we. I finally read Herrigels Zen and the art of archery (or how ever that is translated to english). I know what I lack, massivly, dicipline. I’ve never been good on that. Just never, I could be really good with guitar, if I wuld have the dicipline to practise that, but I’ve never had. Well, there’s a lot taht I could be with dicipline. THen I’m thinking about this zen and how I’ll never be anygood at that because I lack the dicipline of sitting for hours and hours.
At the same time it comes forward in places I would not have though like in Dan Simmons “Endymion”, well, it’s soap and scifi but zen nevertheless. So what is zen? uh…
found William Blake’s marriage of heaven and hell in finnish from internet and ordered it. I hope I get it next week. I remember a lot of it in english thanks to Ulver, but specially towards the end I’m lost. So it will be nice to have it and read it with more time and more time. I read it in OKu many times but still.
Also I try to read De Dao Jing more often since SOS is getting near and I’m hoping to get even more inspiration to my teaching, maybe Blake will offer that also.
A lot of people have cancelled their coming to sos. I’m very dissapointed. We still have people in the waiting list though, but some of the cancelled ones have been really nice people who I wished to meet. But now there will be other nice people instead of them so it will be fine I’m sure.
I never use scarf normally, but now I do. So nice that I was given one long and thick one last august.
I guess that’s all for now.
